Wednesday, May 4, 2011


This week

We should have been anticipating an exciting appointment.

This week

We should have been seeing our first fuzzy picture of you.

This week

We should have been discovering if you were boy #3 or girl #1. 

This week

We should have been dreaming in pinks or blues.

This week
We realize that was our plan. Not His.

This week

You're in His loving arms.

This week

You're perfect and healthy and happy.

This week

You're in eternity.


You won't return to us.

But someday, we'll come to you. 
(2 Sam. 12:23)

On Friday, we would have been 20 weeks pregnant. One of the first big milestones in my mind. This would have been about the time we'd have our ultrasound and find out if we were having a boy or girl... one of my favorite appointments.

The last few days have been incredibly difficult, but God is bringing me out of the tunnel I felt like I was in. The rest of the week is going to be hard, but praise the Lord I have His grace and hope to rest under.

"I will never forget this awful time,
as I grieve over my loss.
Yet I still dare to hope
when I remember this:
The faithful love of the Lord never ends!
His mercies never cease.
Great is his faithfulness;
his mercies begin afresh each morning.
I say to myself, 'The Lord is my inheritance;
therefore, I will hope in him!'"
Lamentations 3:20-24

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  1. I'm so sorry. :(

  2. kristy, i'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers - i have great admiration for you and your strength.

  3. prayers for you and your family

  4. So sorry to hear Kristy!! I am praying for you and Josh! Thank you for sharing your heart!